
Amanda hereâ
wife, mom, chronic illness warrior, and the heart behind Running Out of Spoons. my story didnât start here.
It began as a kid….
But it wasn’t recognized until
I was in my adult years.
“It’s just anxiety.”
“Everything looks normal.”
You’re not alone!
Where it all started…..
My journey actually started from birth when I was born with a rare genetic connective tissue disorder that progressed as I got older. The signs and symptoms were there but nodody could see them and we had no idea what my life was about to entail.
Fast forward to my teen years, I really begin to struggle physically but things were overlooked. I was diagnosed with Gravesâ disease early into my first pregnancy where I struggled with pregnancy complications. I delivered my beautiful son 8 weeks early at 17 years old. I tried to push through life as a young mom with an autoimmune condition, but as the years went on, more symptoms continued to pile on and even doctors couldnt keep up with me. I later went on to deliver 2 more beautiful children. And a few years later, I was introduced to the Spoonie life- the chronic illness community, where spoons mattered.
I went through season after season of being misdiagnosed, dismissed, and brushed off. Appointment after appointment felt the same: âeverything looks normal,â âitâs anxiety,â âyouâre too young for that.â After a while, I started questioning myself. Maybe I was too sensitive. Maybe this really was all in my head. But deep down, I knew something was wrong. My body didnât function like everyone elseâs, and pretending otherwise was really draining the life out of me. I felt invisible to everyone while fighting for my life on the inside.
Then one day, the invisible didnt feel so invisible anymore. I met a doctor then later her assistant who didnât dismiss me, talk over me, or make me feel crazy. They listened. They examined me carefully. And for the first time, all of the strange things happening both inside and outside of my body began to make sense since my child hood. They introduced me to a condition that most doctors have never heard ofâor claim is too rare to have: Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome. I talk about it here: The truth about Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS) Explained: What You Should Know – Running Out Of Spoons. That diagnosis led to another puzzle piece falling into place: POTS, And later, in my 30s, additional puzzle pieces appearedâmultiple rare abdominal compressions that affected my whole GI severely and more.
The validation I received that day was so healing in ways I didnât expect. My body had been speaking for years, and finally, someone heard it. The answers didnât erase my symptoms, but they changed everything. They didnât just help future doctors understand me betterâthey helped me understand my body with compassion instead of doubt. And for the first time, I could finally acknowledge just how delicate, yet incredibly strong, it really is. I will never forget the doctors that God placed in my life at that moment.

Where my pain found purpose
grace for every season
Running Out of Spoons was born during a time when I felt completely unseen, unheard, and exhausted by years of medical gaslighting. I wanted to build a place where women living with invisible illnesses could finally feel understood and supportedâbecause I know how isolating this journey can be. My hope is that by sharing my story, others will feel less alone in theirs.
Where the silent battles matter too

Living Life One Spoon at a Time
Over the years, Iâve learned that being a Spoonie isnât a weakness â itâs a different way of moving through life. Sure we might have a limited amount of spoons each day but itâs slower, softer, and more intentional. And thatâs okay. There is beauty in learning to live life one gentle step at a time.
Living as a Spoonie has taught me more about grace than anything else. Itâs shown me how God works even in the quietest, hardest places. Itâs taught me to measure my energy, trust His timing, and rest when my body asks for it.
Invisible illness hides behind steady smiles and quiet strength. Just because others canât see the battle doesnât mean it isnât there. Some of the hardest fights happen beneath the surface.
If you’re a Spoonie too, I hope you find comfort and understanding here. You’re not alone!
You are seen-You are Loved-You are never alone
Amanda

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